Everyone gets old, not everyone grows up: she tries to be mean, but it has a source, which is her vulnerability, her brokenness, her inability to connect with people. That seems to be the source of all her issues.
watched a french film Pieds nussurleslimaces (Barefoot on slugs), i like it a lot. it's about two sisters, the younger one is cool and weird, kinda something wrong with her mind, but very natural. it shows what does freedom mean. i love ludivine sagnier. she's kinda the same age as me, but already a mom of two children.
think i have got the same sense of "craziness" as french, since finished watching a french thriller dvd, at the end there are some words by the director, on the corner on the screen: this film is dedicated to his mom, she is his inspiration. tha'ts pretty awesome sense. and my favorite actor, the talented British actor Johnathan Rhys Meyers tried to kill himself after drinking. So think i might get the same "craziness" as him, just not that extreme as some addiction problem. anyway no matter what to happen to johnathan, i'm gonna always love him