love

there is a word in this world,we called it Love!maybe i am a fucking romantic person,i do believe in love.once i fall in love,i am not myself.i live for him.then i will become a boring person. but i can do nothing for it.i even cant change myself a little even for love.too sensitive! I am so possession.i cant believe my guy would belong to others.that hurt me a lot!
just like last sunday.when i in the bed and looked at the candle,dont need any imagine,i can feel that the thing is not prepare for me but others used it before.oh my god!life sucks!
i will never go on things like this ,i promise!
anyway.i do believe in love even i know how love hurts.but without love i am nothing!i will keep searching my love until i die!